REVENGE

Its not the story about forgiveness

hallo blogger :) kali ini aku mau curcol dikit ni..
sorry ya kalo curhatanku ini bikin muak,, klo males bacanya ya ga usah dibaca :p hehe

"hay kamu.." orang yang sebegitu care nya . makasih yaa :)
makasih banget udah kasih perhatian-perhatian yang bahkan lebih besar dari orang yg paling dekat denganku. aku bersyukur banget Tuhan udah ngenalin aku sama kamu..
kamu yang mampu sayang sm aku, bahkan bila kamu tau aku ga mungkin bisa sesayang itu sm kamu.
kamu yg tetep care sm aku meski kamu tau kalo aku ga mungkin nyimpen kamu di hatiku..
kamu yg rela berkorban ini itu buat aku, meski kamu tau aku ga akan pernah bales buat berkorban buat kamu.
kamu yg selalu naruh aku di daftar utama prioritas kamu, meski kamu tau ,ga ada secuilpun namamu di otakku.
dan yg terpenting, kmu yg ga pernah capek ngeyakinin aku kalo kamu bisa jadi pelindung buat aku, bahkan saat kamu tau kalo aku udah punya dia :)
maaf yaa.. bila pada akhirnya pengorbanan yg kamu beri ini sia-sia :(
maaf kalo pada akhirnya aku TETAP ga bisa nyelipin kamu di sela-sela kesibukanku.
aku yakin kok..suatu saat bakal ada orang yang jauhhh lebih baik dari aku,, yang bisa nerima kamu
dan ngebales semua cinta dan kasih sayang kamu :)
maaf atas semua kekecewaan ini ya..
karna menurutku..
cinta itu bukan hanya sekedar perasaan dan pengorbanan..
cinta itu prinsip.
prinsip untuk tetap mencinta dan mempertahankan,, meski tau bahwa akan selalu ada orang yg lebih baik dan yang mungkin lebih besar pengorbanan nya :)
tapi prinsip itu layaknya sebuah pondasi. dan aku udah ngebangun pondasi itu atas nama "dia".
dan aku sangat mencintainya :)
maaf.. :")

dear John,

there's so much I wanna say to you, but I am not sure  where I should begin. Should I start by telling you that I love you? or that the days I've spent with you have been the happiest in my life? or that in the short time I've known you, I've come to believe  that we were meant to be together? I could say all those things n all would be true, but as I reread them, all I can think is that I wish I were with you now, holding your hand and watching your exclusive smile

In the future I know I'll relive our time together a thousand times. I'll hear your laughter and see your face and feel your arms around me. I am going to miss all of that, more than you can imagine. you are a rare gentleman. In all the time we were together, you never pressed me to sleep with you, and I can't tell u how much u mean to me. It made what we had seem even more special, and thats how I always wanna remember my time with you. like a pure white light, breathtaking to be hold.

I'll think about you everyday. Part of me is scared that there will come a time when you dont feel the same way, that you'll somehow forget about what we shared, so this is what I wanna do.

Wherever you are, no matter whats going on in your life when it is the first night of the full moon -like it was the first time we met- I want you to find it in the night time sky. I want you to think about me and the week we shared.

Because wherever I am and no matter whats going on in my life, thas exactly what I'll be doing. If we can't be together , at least we can share that, and maybe between the two of us, we can make this last forever.

I love you, and Im going to hold you to the promise you once made me. If you come back, I'll marry you.

I might lose my mind for a while. but I will be fine. have you heard there is this thing that heals, and it is called time.

you hink you aren't pretty, there's always someone uglier.
you want more money. People are in poverty.
you want a boyfriend. Someone doesn't even have parents.
you are hungry. a child is starving.
you wanna go to the mall. someone is looking for anything they can wear just to stay warm.
you are chilly. others are frozen.
you just wanna die. most people wanna live.
So dont waste your time on thing that you think you want, because there is always someone out there
who needs it much more than you could ever possibly know.

"Happiness is a perfume, you can't pour on others without getting a few drops on your self"

Fashion is not something that exist in dresses only.
Fashion is in the sky, the street, fashion has to do with Ideas,
the way we live, what is happening.
-Coco Chanel-

Style is an exxpression of individualism mined with charisma. 
Fashion is something that comes after style.

Lights will guide you home

☮

No Me Ames

Tell me why you’re crying…
Of happiness.
And why are you drowning?
for loneliness
Tell me why you take my hands so strongly, and let your
thoughts carry you away

I love you so much
And why is that?
Crazy stubborn person, stop doubting it any longer
Even though in the future there will be a huge wall
I’m not afraid, I want to fall in love

Dont love me, because you think that
I may appear different
You dont think its right
For us to see time go by together?
Dont love me, I understand
the lie that it would be
If your love, I dont deserve, dont love me,
just stay another day

Dont love me, because I am lost,
Because I changed the world,Because its destiny
Because it can’t be, We both are like a mirror,
And you would be my own reflection
Don’t love me, you would be dying
Within a war full of regrets,
dont love me to be on the ground, I want to take off (fly away) with your enormous love thru the blue of the sky

If you want to be alone, I will be your shadow. 
If you need a hug, I will be your pillow.

 If you want to cry, I will be your shoulder. 
If you need someone to share & love I will just be me.

buat kamu yaa.. aku ga ngerti apa kamu ga punya bahan pikiran lain atau emang ga ada yg difikirin..
tapi sumpah aku males bgt denger kamu yg seneng bgt ikut campur urusan org lain.. please.. ga ada yg bisa difikirin kah selain ngurusin orang?
fikirin kluargamu kek, pacarmu kek.. oh iya aku lupa klo kamu gak punya pacar.. pantesan.. hae, mblo?

Hello , let me interduce you to one of my bestiest :))
she is Oktaviana Sari Dewi

hey sari.. maaf yah aku ga pake izin masukin fotomu di sini :p
gadis yang sangat cantik ini adalah temen se kampusku
2 taun kita tutorial bareng .
sebenernya bosen sih tapi ya gimana :p
dia gadis yang menakjubkan I think
gatau knp tapi kagum sama gadis ini :)
pola pikirnya, cara pandangnya, pola tingkahnya..
begitu smart dan dewasa bagiku
hemm..
bahkan ga jarang aku sampe meleleh dengerin nasehat2 yang keluar darinya
Zzzz untuk gadis model sepertiku, pasti berfikir
"Ni cewek umur berapa sih? omelannya kayak nenek2 yg udah makan asam garam"
Hihihii.. tapi detik demi detik kamu pasti bakal menyadari..
bahwa apa yang dia katakan kepadamu itu sungguh2 yg terbaik buat kamu..
kadang aku berfikir..
kenapa Sari ini harus perempuan sih??
"Sar.. kamu ga pengen ganti kelamin?"
Dia gadis cantik yang luar biasa..
dan aku..
salah satu pengagumnya :))

with love ^^

God.. bless me :))

this is me and Chiroo.. he is mic's Dog. yeay!! dogdoesdisco :D