REVENGE

Its not the story about forgiveness

hallo blogger :) kali ini aku mau curcol dikit ni..
sorry ya kalo curhatanku ini bikin muak,, klo males bacanya ya ga usah dibaca :p hehe

"hay kamu.." orang yang sebegitu care nya . makasih yaa :)
makasih banget udah kasih perhatian-perhatian yang bahkan lebih besar dari orang yg paling dekat denganku. aku bersyukur banget Tuhan udah ngenalin aku sama kamu..
kamu yang mampu sayang sm aku, bahkan bila kamu tau aku ga mungkin bisa sesayang itu sm kamu.
kamu yg tetep care sm aku meski kamu tau kalo aku ga mungkin nyimpen kamu di hatiku..
kamu yg rela berkorban ini itu buat aku, meski kamu tau aku ga akan pernah bales buat berkorban buat kamu.
kamu yg selalu naruh aku di daftar utama prioritas kamu, meski kamu tau ,ga ada secuilpun namamu di otakku.
dan yg terpenting, kmu yg ga pernah capek ngeyakinin aku kalo kamu bisa jadi pelindung buat aku, bahkan saat kamu tau kalo aku udah punya dia :)
maaf yaa.. bila pada akhirnya pengorbanan yg kamu beri ini sia-sia :(
maaf kalo pada akhirnya aku TETAP ga bisa nyelipin kamu di sela-sela kesibukanku.
aku yakin kok..suatu saat bakal ada orang yang jauhhh lebih baik dari aku,, yang bisa nerima kamu
dan ngebales semua cinta dan kasih sayang kamu :)
maaf atas semua kekecewaan ini ya..
karna menurutku..
cinta itu bukan hanya sekedar perasaan dan pengorbanan..
cinta itu prinsip.
prinsip untuk tetap mencinta dan mempertahankan,, meski tau bahwa akan selalu ada orang yg lebih baik dan yang mungkin lebih besar pengorbanan nya :)
tapi prinsip itu layaknya sebuah pondasi. dan aku udah ngebangun pondasi itu atas nama "dia".
dan aku sangat mencintainya :)
maaf.. :")

dear John,

there's so much I wanna say to you, but I am not sure  where I should begin. Should I start by telling you that I love you? or that the days I've spent with you have been the happiest in my life? or that in the short time I've known you, I've come to believe  that we were meant to be together? I could say all those things n all would be true, but as I reread them, all I can think is that I wish I were with you now, holding your hand and watching your exclusive smile

In the future I know I'll relive our time together a thousand times. I'll hear your laughter and see your face and feel your arms around me. I am going to miss all of that, more than you can imagine. you are a rare gentleman. In all the time we were together, you never pressed me to sleep with you, and I can't tell u how much u mean to me. It made what we had seem even more special, and thats how I always wanna remember my time with you. like a pure white light, breathtaking to be hold.

I'll think about you everyday. Part of me is scared that there will come a time when you dont feel the same way, that you'll somehow forget about what we shared, so this is what I wanna do.

Wherever you are, no matter whats going on in your life when it is the first night of the full moon -like it was the first time we met- I want you to find it in the night time sky. I want you to think about me and the week we shared.

Because wherever I am and no matter whats going on in my life, thas exactly what I'll be doing. If we can't be together , at least we can share that, and maybe between the two of us, we can make this last forever.

I love you, and Im going to hold you to the promise you once made me. If you come back, I'll marry you.

I might lose my mind for a while. but I will be fine. have you heard there is this thing that heals, and it is called time.