dear John,

there's so much I wanna say to you, but I am not sure  where I should begin. Should I start by telling you that I love you? or that the days I've spent with you have been the happiest in my life? or that in the short time I've known you, I've come to believe  that we were meant to be together? I could say all those things n all would be true, but as I reread them, all I can think is that I wish I were with you now, holding your hand and watching your exclusive smile

In the future I know I'll relive our time together a thousand times. I'll hear your laughter and see your face and feel your arms around me. I am going to miss all of that, more than you can imagine. you are a rare gentleman. In all the time we were together, you never pressed me to sleep with you, and I can't tell u how much u mean to me. It made what we had seem even more special, and thats how I always wanna remember my time with you. like a pure white light, breathtaking to be hold.

I'll think about you everyday. Part of me is scared that there will come a time when you dont feel the same way, that you'll somehow forget about what we shared, so this is what I wanna do.

Wherever you are, no matter whats going on in your life when it is the first night of the full moon -like it was the first time we met- I want you to find it in the night time sky. I want you to think about me and the week we shared.

Because wherever I am and no matter whats going on in my life, thas exactly what I'll be doing. If we can't be together , at least we can share that, and maybe between the two of us, we can make this last forever.

I love you, and Im going to hold you to the promise you once made me. If you come back, I'll marry you.